Friday, February 26, 2010
Do you ever feel like your hard work goes unnoticed? I've been struggling with this lately in many areas of my life. The only sanity I find is when I choose not to focus on that because it only generates resentment and in turn makes it hard to stay motivated. Sometimes there are things that I'm working on that require an extra deal of time and effort. I try to manage things in such a way that everything isn't always due at once, but there are times when projects or deadlines overlap and it puts an immense amount of pressure on me. This week was one of them all around. During these times, when I'm working extra hard, some of the little things get tossed to the wayside. Yet aren't these the things that others seem to notice, what you're not doing? I feel like screaming (although I'm not a screamer or even a yeller), "I'm not slacking, in fact, I'm working extra hard, not that anybody is noticing!"
As writers we can be working diligently and become very consumed with our work without anyone seeing any fruit from our labor. "How is your writing coming along? . . . When are you ever going to get that book published? . . . I don't have time to write for free." The answer is never easy without having to enter a dissertation. Replying with a word count often meets with dead stares. Trying to explain the publishing process is another matter entirely. It appears though we are writing with an expectation of no remuneration whatsoever. If we are hoping for publication the pay comes later, although the reward can be found in the work itself. Not every one gets that. It's important to resist the compulsion to try to justify ourselves to everyone. It's also important to keep our eyes on the task at hand and remember that we ultimately answer to one authority - the One who called us and equipped us for our occupation. He notices. Let's stop looking to be remunerated with respect or appreciation, and offer our gratitude instead. That gratitude can be a great motivator.